“You were everything I ever wanted, and I was so close to having you, but being close doesn’t mean you have it. It’s just something to tease you into believing you can achieve it. It’s letting you fight as hard as you can for it, and when you’ve almost grasped it, it disappears and you’re left with nothing. You cry and you cry, beg and pray, but it doesn’t come back. You were so close, but you lost it. Nothing will ever be the same. You know that if you had just pushed a little harder, you would’ve had it. The pain of being so close hurts more than having it and losing it, because you never got the chance to have it at all.”—(via deformedprincess) (via wordsleftunspoken)
i just got back from the gym, happy that i released some stress & what do i get? bullshit. bullshit about how we never talk & how you’ve been feeling like you’re losing me. wake up buddy, that’s what i’ve been saying for the past two weeks, don’t you listen? i bring up the weekend coming up & you bring up facebook. WTF. stop being so damn insecure about me. it’s been three years .. almost. why don’t you get the fact that i’m still here for a reason? why don’t you get the fact that they’re just friends? lay off my life & stop trying to control me, seriously. i’m starting to feel like i’ve wasted my efforts .. & my time. i hate it. i hate feeling like this, i think anybody would. you say you can’t do anything about the fact that you’re working on the twenty-second. BULL-FUCKING-SHIT. call in sick maybe? ohh wait .. you’ve never done that before. take a fucking chance you douche. hmmm .. actually, maybe booking it off last month might have been a better idea? yeah, it would have. nice to know that you can book off a day to buy a video game on its release date & forget about your three year anniversary with your girlfriend. wow, shows how important i am.